My 10 Day Diary - II

and the ramblings from my diary continue......

Note: Read My ten day Diary I

Feb 22, 2002
"Dear Diary,
This was one of the best days of my life. As usual, I wasted my time in the morning sifting through the pics on my comp. As I started from home by 4, I awaited the final moment of my school life. If two years of schooling in Anna Univ campus was fun, the finale ended with a bang. The farewell was not as emotional as P spoke abt. Afterall I was going to be a free bird. But just the sight of those chicks in saree. "Where were the sarees till now?" was the first thing that crossed my mind. But the sight of the twins revealing 50% of themselves had all the guys with their mouth open. I saw S for one last time and man was she stunning. H & R were fabulous too. Anyways, I'll cherish and remember these two years and have the pics of the chicks to revive me when I'm down. Just wonder if I am destined to be such a prick."

Feb 23,2002
"Dear Diary,
Today was the day I started studying. ONly few days left for the exams. I got the photos of the farewell. Some were ok some were bad. I looked awful in most of them. Thinking about my weight, I really dont care. I want people to see me for who I am and not how I look. I really have no clue as to where I'm going. Dont know where life's going to lead me to."


Feb 24,2002
"Dear Diary,
Its been another bullshit day for me. I've tried cramming and it never works. Hope some miracle happens and in a weeks time I can learn everything from scratch. Hmmm. Funny that rock stars get to spit out their minds on radio! When will a common guy like me get to do so?"

Feb 25,2002
"Dear Diary,
As on everyday, I was browsing early morning pretending to be studying. Watched TV after that till 3. Why do I get distracted so easily? Is it the wicked side of me or just some kinda complex that I'm not able to do what I want to. Being forced to study and cram. Why am I being such a rebel? Guess I'm not good enough to fit in this f***ing society where formalities and commitments form the basis of human relationship. Started getting dreams of S from a fantasy I read on the net. When my mind is taken into a rat's body, I think I'll turn into the rat who's the sex maniac. But that wont happen. Funny that T , R & co are such s**ts."

Feb 26,2002
"Dear Diary,
Today was the day of soul searching after I learnt that I had performed the worst among the friends. Getting 95 on 150 without studying wasn't a big deal. Anyways, one day I'll be famous. Maybe a pop star or movie actor or maybe a software, net hacker or a businesman. Hope studies and marks in school and college dont form the criteria of success in life. I'll be a loser then. I'm even thinking of becoming a journalist. At this rate, I may end up in tihar jail on charges of fraud or robbery or copyright infringement."

Feb 27, 2002
"Dear Diary,
The damned VHP must be shot down like them nazis. Can't they cherish the fact that we are a secular country? I wanna stay out of all this shit and enjoy life. I was listening to eminem again today. He can never be compared with anyone rite now. Started getting serious on the studies front. I hope I perform well in the main subjects. Dont know why I'm not determined enough. Kept getting S back on my mind. Man!! What a pair! Dont know where my dream girl will be."

Feb 28,2002
"Dear Diary,
Just two days to go before I get my ass kicked bigtime. This is the most unprepared moment of my entire life. I should not have wasted so much time on porn and tv. Now only two days left. Can't belive even VK is getting better marks than me. Well if only I was as hardworking as him. Hope I can maintain a check on my waistline. Gonna be a major problem otherwise. I've almost decided. Its gonna be the movies for me. My future lies somewhere on the big screen. Not been able to listen to eminem because of constant irritation from my parents to study. S keeps coming in her bikini and before I blink, poof! She's gone. I'm running against time!"

March 1,2002
"Dear Diary,
Ok! So one more day to go. Hope I keep writing this diary even after today. I'm gearing up for the ultimate challenge I have faced upto now. All the 11 years of my school life have come down to this. Its either now or never. And thinking about how I'm gonna look in a crowd of thousands taking up this exams, everyone at the centre is gonna make fun at me. Hah! But one day I'll have my revenge. Lets see who's gonna have the last laugh"

And so ended my short stint at diary writing. Against what I had hoped, I never made another entry into the damn thing. And after reading this piece of shit I used to call a diary, I hope I never will. "Hope" never goes your way!!